Hi, its me again!

I have found that sometimes when something is bothering and I can't quite work it out in my head, that it helps to write it down and figure it out that way. So that is my plan for this blog. So, Hi, how are you? Its been awhile? Anything new in your life?

I'm still at Target, I'm getting less hours due to the fact that the remodel is done but I still have moments of enjoyment when I get to arrange things and clean up stuff. The moments are less frequent than when I last blogged but they are still there. But let's dive straight to the heart of my issues. And if you know me at all you will more than likely laugh at the last sentence and make a snide comment about me having too many issues to work through. Ha Ha Ha, I laughed on the inside, I swear!

Issue # 1 I am not going to say that this is the more important of the two but it is the one that currently irks me the most so we will be starting with it tonight. Ok, my dad got this huge job which is great because it means we might actually be able to leave this excuse for a house that we have now. ( I don't know if I have mentioned it previously or not but this condo is tiny and the walls are paper thin so when dad wakes up to pee at 2 AM , I hear it, when the neighbors in the condo connected to ours decide to play air hockey to 5 something in the morning, guess what? I HEAR IT!!!) I was going to help dad with the job because it is WAY too big for him to do by his self and get done at a decent rate. However, around the same time my friend tells me that there is this guy she likes and he is having money issues. She didn't know about the job but it just occurred at the same time. Me, being my ever so helpful yet idiotic self, I pass this on to my dad. One thing leads to another and dad hires this dude. I was so smug, I no longer had to work on the job that bores me to tears, forces me to wear a harness, AND go up really high in a lift ( I HATE heights!). This guy gets a job and my dad has a helper. All is well that ends well right? WRONG!!! My dad finally found the son he always wanted but never had. To put it simply, I have been replaced. I grew up a tom boy, mostly because I spent so much time with my dad and he always wanted a son. He loved working with and hanging with me. But now he has found someone who scratches his crotch, isn't afraid of heights, and can go to the bathroom in the some area as my dad. I'm not sure if this would really have bothered me if it wasn't for what happened next. My dad WILL NOT STOP talking about the wonder that is this guy. Every time I talk to my dad its Justin did this and Justin told me this and its a miracle that Justin is alive, blah blah blah. *bangs head against desk repeatedly*. On top of this, personally, this guy wigs me out. There is something off about him and I don't dare tell my friend or my dad because they would more than likely beat me up and the leave me somewhere to rot. Ok, I think that is all I have for the issue. Moving on....

Issue #2: I have finally come to the point where I am ready to move on with my life and go to college! YEAH!! I know right? I have found a college I like, its UMKC which spelled out is University of Missouri Kansas City. I specifically picked it because it is in Kansas City, which means I will be close to Tommy. Who I thought was my best friend. Everything is looking good for the college. A friend of mine went there for a year and said it was good. It has majors that actually sound interesting to me and its about the same price as Mel's college (which if i haven't told you yet, Mel is going to Truman State University.) I am highly considering retaking the ACT. I don't really need to but I know I can do better than a 22 and I feel like I have to prove it myself and everyone else. I don't know why I really consider this an issue. I guess its just because I am a big wimp and the idea of doing something different and leaving what I am used to behind makes me want to hide under my blankets.

Everything else is going ok. I have a guy that I REALLY REALLY like and he says he likes me back but like any relationship (especially any that involve me) there is complications. I don't really have anyone to talk to about things because everyone I know is busy, engaged/married, prego, seeing someone, or quite simply not talking to me anymore. Which reminds me, remember Arielle? Yeah, we are so not talking anymore. She has decided to go ahead and marry the schmuck Travis and follow him to wherever (which last I heard is Florida) She is planning her wedding in San Antonio, Texas but don't ask me the details, I just hear what everyone decides to pass on to me. You know, for future reference. If you are a friend, co-worker, associate, heck if you are the guy living on the street. If you ask for my advice,I will give you pretty darn good advice. And this is not bragging ( least it isn't meant to be) its just fact. I tend to pick on human behavior and patterns very well and I have a sense about things that has yet to fail me. So when I say, don't date that person, don't quite your job, talk to that guy he likes you.... There is a pretty good chance I AM RIGHT!

Ok, I think I am finished. At least my hands got a good work out. TTYL, Ciao!

Right on Target?

Ok quick catch up. I have a job @ Target (get it? lol) I turned 21 (DON'T ASK!) and I was one of fifty to get accepted into the Vet Tech program at Hickey College, that i don't want to go to right now.  Oh, also i think i found my soul mate?
I LOVE my job at Target, I have friends, the work is challenging and fun and I get paid to organize things! Only downside is that I have to get up at 5:18 five days a week (ugh I know!) but on the flip side, I'm done with an 8 hour shift by 2.
So on to the reason i decided to blog tonight. Mel is going to college SATURDAY! So this week has been like a cram session trying to spend as much time with her as possible. Last night we went to see Crazy Stupid Love. Which I liked. I laughed, I cried, it moved me Bob (inside quote, I think from Veggie Tales lol) and then we decided to get dinner. Although in my defense I wanted to get dinner before the movie, but Mel said after. So then she asks "Where do you want to go?" And let's be honest, O'fallon, Wentzville, St. Charles area really, isn't full of night life. So i suggest Bob Evans. Hey it's food and they wouldn't close five minutes after we got there. So we get there around 9:30 and we are literally the ONLY customers.  The restaurant is DEAD! The waitress' and cooks are playing cards/ talking/ texting/ facebook-ing. So they didn't seem too thrilled to see us.  Our waitress was a blonde and one of those who I'm sure when she is off the clock uses an excess amount of the words 'like' 'no way' and 'and then i was like...' You get my drift? So she brought us our drinks and we are sitting there completely unsure of how to behave. So she takes our order and we are trying so hard to be easy for her so she won't kill us and/or spit in our food. I ordered a burger, with a salad and fries. Melissa ordered chicken tenders, with a salad and hash browns. Simple right? Yeah, she literally messed up all three of my foods! When she dropped off our food she took my salad bowl and asked if I wanted my fork. In my mind  I was thinking 'no lady normally you eat a burger and fries with you fingers!' so I said no thanks. She looked down at my plate where she had mistakenly put Mel's hash browns ( called home fries there but whatever!) and said "Don't you want them for your home fries?" Ok first of all, number one rule in service, never question the guest or claim they are wrong (unless absolutely necessary). But if she wanted to be idiot, who was I to stop her? So I looked at her and said "Those are her's" . She DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE for mixing the food up. And because Mel is a bleeding heart and I wasn't in the mood to complain, the waitress ended up with a seven dollar tip,( I am SO kicking myself for that right now lol)
As far as the soul mate goes.... I almost don't want to say anything so I don't risk the chance of  ruining it. But I will inform you.... Its complicated LOL
Hope your life is going the way you wanted it.... or at least not sucking!
CIAO!

Kansas City ROAD TRIP!

Ok, so last Friday morning, my sister, our friend, and I set out towards Kansas City. On the way we talked (A LOT) and listened to music ranging from Sick Puppies, to Country, to a mix of Veggietales and Disney. When we got to KC we immediately went to kidnap my best friend Tommy. It took longer than expected because we ran into his family but then we escaped lol. We went to lunch then decided to head to our hotel to drop off our stuff.  About 40 minutes later we left said hotel because yours truly was a MORON. See I booked the hotel room months in advanced and I put my credit card down and thought it would be taken out immediately. Well turns out they didn't try taking it out til last week and let's just say my account was lacking. So thankfully my mom came through and found us another hotel. We spent the rest of the day goofing off with Tommy. We ate at this restaurant called In-A-Tub. Not a big fan but different strokes for different fokes and all that jazz. Then we went and saw The X-Men First Class. AWESOME MOVIE!!! Saturday involved a scary adventure for breakfast followed  by an art museum and more shopping (poor Tommy lol). Sunday was church and Tommy's church was adorable but odd which one should almost expect if one knows Tommy. Then we went and got a cupcake at this awesome place called Cupcake A La Mode (YUMMMMM!!!). Then we set/stood in line for 4 HOURS for a concert. The concert was pretty cool even though we got soaked with other people's sweat! Monday we went to a park that Tommy took us to and it was beautiful. Then we drove home. I am so happy to be home but I miss Tommy already and life is kind of dull when you just finished an interesting journey you know? Anyways, just catching you up on the that. In 13 days guess what happens? I TURN 21!!! yeah it sounds fun but I have a feeling its going to pass with little to no excitement. Oh, well. As the French say Such is Life.

This is YOUR life

So, you ever get to the point in your life where you just want to press pause? You know, that moment when all of a sudden you start thinking to yourself, Wait! How did that happen?  I can't believe I said THAT! What do I do now? If you are anything like me then this tends to happen oh I don't know... every few weeks! Sometimes though it is other things besides contemplation that puts me in this mood. Tonight it happened when my sister Mel made me watch a presentation of hers for school and listen to the song that she had picked out to go along with it. The Title of the song is This is Your Life by Switchfoot. And it got my thinking. I'm going to show you the lyrics so you can see what i mean...

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

Don’t close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose 

Do you see what I mean? I mean WOW! Isn't that like a punch in the gut? Am I who i want to be? No. Is this the life I dreamed of? NO! I want to have a job that challenges me, a car that is mine and actually works, and a man that thinks I'm his soul mate. The aftermath of this song can be a bit bitter but its also a kick in the pants to push us to accomplish our dreams. I'm working on the job and the car ( Wish me luck!) now all i need is a man.... LOL ( wish me A LOT of luck! )

Ciao!

Real Friends vs. Not Real Friends

Ok so lately life has shown me a few simple ways of telling a real friend from a not real friend or a fake as we shall call it for the duration of this blog.

Real Friend: Tells it to you straight no matter what (i.e. I don't like that person you are dating, i think he/she is a bad idea)

Fake Friend: Lies through their teeth (i.e. No that neon orange mini skirt that is two sizes too small DOES NOT make your butt look big)

Real Friend: Has your back no matter what (i.e. How dare they tell you that you look like a troll! Let's go kick some butt, let me just get my crutches.)

Fake Friend: Only has your back when its easy (i.e. They said your hair looks bad today? Lets give them dirty looks even though they are no longer in the room)

Real Friend: Confronts you when you are doing something stupid (i.e. Hey! You are a moron! Black and Brown DO NOT go together!)

Fake Friend: Doesn't care enough to tell you (i.e. Yeah, i knew your pants were unzipped all day... I thought you knew)

Real Friend: Listens to you when you have a problem then helps you come up with a solution (i.e. Here's a tissue, ok what if you do this? would that help?)

Fake Friend: Listens to you when you have a problem then explains why their problem is worse (i.e. I know you have cancer and are going to die but yesterday this girl made fun of my shoes!)

In summary, A real friend is ALWAYS there for you and they NEVER turn their back. Some people like the phrase " A good friend bails you out of jail, a best friend is sitting next to you saying, that was fun!" Me,I prefer the phrase that says " A best friend is someone who opens the door and sees you holding a dead body, doesn't  say anything, just grabs a shovel and helps you bury it"

I want to thank all my REAL friends, John, Becca, Mel, Sara,and Tommy. Thanks Guys! You ROCK!

The Death of a Dream and the Beginning of a Nightmare

Hey, sorry yall. I forgot my password and then life went down the drain. My Christmas was pretty good. I got to do the devotions and i had this (in my humble opinion) awesome lesson. And i even wrote a poem, which i will post as soon as i found it lol. A little after Christmas i found my dream car. A 2003 Chrysler PT Cruiser, in a very pretty blue color. I did all my research on and I drove it off the lot two days after the new year. This car was perfect. Everything worked, it had spunk, and it completely suited my personality. I named it Miss Bonnie Lou after my grandmother who had always wanted a PT Cruiser. So on January 14 I was on my way to pick up my friend Kay-Kay, to take her to this thing for a job she wanted. I was running behind, which means I was speeding, and i got pulled. I was not happy but whatever. Then I get off the highway at the exit that leads to my friend's place. I'm driving and wondering how I'm going to tell my parents when I notice this car looks like its going to drive right out in front of me. I hit the breaks but it didn't do anything. I ended up hitting her car going 30 miles an hour. Her car was pushed forward and out of the street. My car stayed in the lane I had started in. My airbags deployed and people it does not feel pleasant. There was smoke everywhere and my neck to my waist was numb from the airbag. The girl who i hit, she turns out to be not only someone i know but a friend of my sisters, had to help open my door because it got bent in the accident. And i get out. I'm shaking and yes i will admit crying as well. And then i look over and see that the girl whose car i hit ( Let's call her Marybeth for the heck of it) had two girls in the car with her. Thankfully no one was seriously injured. One girl got cut by her ear but that was it. I called my friend and her, her husband and her uncle rushed over to be with me. Thank God for that because i was a wreck (pun intended). The cop was a BUTTHEAD, who went as far as to CHASTISE ME because when i called the cops (which i didn't a witness called it in) i didn't mention that my car was still in the road. He said that if they had know that they would have come quicker. I KNOW! I was pissed about it too (after the shock wore off) Ant, Kay-Kay's husband took pics of my car for me and i called my parents and my dad came to pick me up.A tow car put Miss Bonnie Lou on its car holding thingy and I started crying all over again. Then Kay-Kay's uncle helped me cross the street ( i didn't need it but it was still sweet) and I met up with my dad. I went to the ER and got checked out. The doctor there was also a butthead ( can i pick them or what?). Then i went home. I ended up having to get my back adjusted since the accident threw it out of whack. Btw it takes weeks for your back to go back to the way it is supposed to be. I had to put up with stupid insurance people, I do not suggest getting State Farm. Anyways five days later I FINALLY get a rental car. A nice 2011 Chevy Malibu with the attitude of a cheerleader. Arielle and i went to highway K to get dinner and it started to snow so we quickly finished and headed home. Guess what? This idiot ( and that is as nice as i can put it) decided it would be completely ok to cross three lanes on the highway going 50 mph IN A SNOW STORM!! Do you see where this is going? He spun (DUH!) and Yup you guessed it, he hit the front of my rental car. Let me just say i was FREAKING OUT!!! Thank God for Arielle, she was calm and managed to get me to calm down. Fast forward to now, a whole month later. The insurance people finally got their butts in gear and said the rental car accident wasn't my fault. But the people handling my first accident are ...guess what? BUTTHEADS! I'm having to borrow my sister's car to go to and from work ( something neither one of us like) and I have learned that I highly dislike insurance people. My goal is to be able to get another PT Cruiser. Pray for me ok? I can use all the help i can get!