Well I'm 22

So its official, I am now 22. Don't worry I haven't changed AT ALL. I still refer to Disney for all life's lessons and quotes. I am also officially walking normal now, well as normal as I have ever walked. Ooh you totally missed my birthday party. It was AWESOME! We went to Old Time Spaghetti Factory. They were doing a murder mystery dinner theater. It was hilarious! It wasn't as mysterious as I would have liked but what it lacked in mystery, my friends made up in being... just crazy as usual. Kaylee was even in the play. She played Connie the Clipper, a mysterious assassin. Which if you know her at all you know suits her to a T! It was great! One small draw back? I only got two presents. Those of you who don't know me, I LOVE presents! if you ever need to be on my good side, give me something to play with. Unfortunately, Kaylee, Mel and I got sick form something that night and we spent the rest of the weekend with this feeling of OMG what happened to my stomach. But it was worth it!  Now I am just looking forward to my trip to Kansas City. Thats all I really for now. Mel and I are watching craft wars. Which I am nerd of enough to absolutely LOVE lol. Anyways, ttyl
CIAO

All that and a bag of potato chips

You know, in an ideal world, family is who you trust beyond all else. You have their back and they have yours. If you have a family like this, count your blessings. However, that is not me. If my family members were completely honest, they would admit that we don't belong together. We each have our immediate family that we stick to, but outside of the house or when you put us in large groups, we become this mess of people who smile and compliment while secretly wondering who is the winner of life. Maybe my luck will change and I will marry into an awesome family. But I kind of doubt it. So the way I see it, I will choose who is my family. I will pick the people who I trust to have my back and be there when I need support. My family (chosen, not biological) always have a good time when together, and we are willing to go to jail if someone dare mess with one of us. Ok that is my rant of the day. On the other hand, I had a blast today with my sister and John. Lots of laughter. that is all for now. Maybe tomorrow I will be in better mood. Ciao!

Life is Crazy....and then you die

OK, so its official that I am a horrible blogger. If you think the amount of blogs i publish is bad you should see my diary. My future kids (if I ever reproduce) are not going to  understand how my entries go from I'm 19 and have a crush on some English major to I'm 21 and getting ready for college.
Anyways, life is moving on blah blah blah. The whole reason I actually got around to blogging is because this girl I work with, Sophie, who I absolutely adore, blogs and it made me feel guilty lol. Ok, latest life situation that you will find humorous is my current date life.... or lack thereof. Don't get me wrong. I have been asked out. The total now is 3 guys. Which is impressive, knowing my looks and personality. All three of them don't meet my standards. Too young, too creepy, too obsessed with himself and so on and so forth. I have had a few people tell me I am too picky. They have said, and I am pretty much quoting here " You will never find love if you don't lower your standards". I would apologize but that would be a big fat lie. So far I have met a total of one guy who met my standards and I was super close to moving to be close to him. Lets just say that he didn't feel the same. But that is life. Why is that everyone is ok with settling for less than they deserve? It has never made sense to me.
If there is any lesson to be learned from my latest rant is this, make a list, think about it for awhile, really really think. And write down everything, EVERYTHING that you MUST have in your future mate. You also include things you would prefer, but don't need, like he should wear boxers, or can't like seafood. And then comes the hard part. STICK to it! If the person doesn't meet the important standards, then don't even go there. It is hard, I will give you that, I have been tempted. But think of it, You are wasting your time and his/hers. Also, I don't care what they say, pity dating or going out with someone for the heck or it/ free dinner, is cruel and wrong. Is there anything else I need to write/rant about? No I think I am good. I will do my best to blog tomorrow, but i make no promises lol
 CIAO!

Hi, its me again!

I have found that sometimes when something is bothering and I can't quite work it out in my head, that it helps to write it down and figure it out that way. So that is my plan for this blog. So, Hi, how are you? Its been awhile? Anything new in your life?

I'm still at Target, I'm getting less hours due to the fact that the remodel is done but I still have moments of enjoyment when I get to arrange things and clean up stuff. The moments are less frequent than when I last blogged but they are still there. But let's dive straight to the heart of my issues. And if you know me at all you will more than likely laugh at the last sentence and make a snide comment about me having too many issues to work through. Ha Ha Ha, I laughed on the inside, I swear!

Issue # 1 I am not going to say that this is the more important of the two but it is the one that currently irks me the most so we will be starting with it tonight. Ok, my dad got this huge job which is great because it means we might actually be able to leave this excuse for a house that we have now. ( I don't know if I have mentioned it previously or not but this condo is tiny and the walls are paper thin so when dad wakes up to pee at 2 AM , I hear it, when the neighbors in the condo connected to ours decide to play air hockey to 5 something in the morning, guess what? I HEAR IT!!!) I was going to help dad with the job because it is WAY too big for him to do by his self and get done at a decent rate. However, around the same time my friend tells me that there is this guy she likes and he is having money issues. She didn't know about the job but it just occurred at the same time. Me, being my ever so helpful yet idiotic self, I pass this on to my dad. One thing leads to another and dad hires this dude. I was so smug, I no longer had to work on the job that bores me to tears, forces me to wear a harness, AND go up really high in a lift ( I HATE heights!). This guy gets a job and my dad has a helper. All is well that ends well right? WRONG!!! My dad finally found the son he always wanted but never had. To put it simply, I have been replaced. I grew up a tom boy, mostly because I spent so much time with my dad and he always wanted a son. He loved working with and hanging with me. But now he has found someone who scratches his crotch, isn't afraid of heights, and can go to the bathroom in the some area as my dad. I'm not sure if this would really have bothered me if it wasn't for what happened next. My dad WILL NOT STOP talking about the wonder that is this guy. Every time I talk to my dad its Justin did this and Justin told me this and its a miracle that Justin is alive, blah blah blah. *bangs head against desk repeatedly*. On top of this, personally, this guy wigs me out. There is something off about him and I don't dare tell my friend or my dad because they would more than likely beat me up and the leave me somewhere to rot. Ok, I think that is all I have for the issue. Moving on....

Issue #2: I have finally come to the point where I am ready to move on with my life and go to college! YEAH!! I know right? I have found a college I like, its UMKC which spelled out is University of Missouri Kansas City. I specifically picked it because it is in Kansas City, which means I will be close to Tommy. Who I thought was my best friend. Everything is looking good for the college. A friend of mine went there for a year and said it was good. It has majors that actually sound interesting to me and its about the same price as Mel's college (which if i haven't told you yet, Mel is going to Truman State University.) I am highly considering retaking the ACT. I don't really need to but I know I can do better than a 22 and I feel like I have to prove it myself and everyone else. I don't know why I really consider this an issue. I guess its just because I am a big wimp and the idea of doing something different and leaving what I am used to behind makes me want to hide under my blankets.

Everything else is going ok. I have a guy that I REALLY REALLY like and he says he likes me back but like any relationship (especially any that involve me) there is complications. I don't really have anyone to talk to about things because everyone I know is busy, engaged/married, prego, seeing someone, or quite simply not talking to me anymore. Which reminds me, remember Arielle? Yeah, we are so not talking anymore. She has decided to go ahead and marry the schmuck Travis and follow him to wherever (which last I heard is Florida) She is planning her wedding in San Antonio, Texas but don't ask me the details, I just hear what everyone decides to pass on to me. You know, for future reference. If you are a friend, co-worker, associate, heck if you are the guy living on the street. If you ask for my advice,I will give you pretty darn good advice. And this is not bragging ( least it isn't meant to be) its just fact. I tend to pick on human behavior and patterns very well and I have a sense about things that has yet to fail me. So when I say, don't date that person, don't quite your job, talk to that guy he likes you.... There is a pretty good chance I AM RIGHT!

Ok, I think I am finished. At least my hands got a good work out. TTYL, Ciao!

Right on Target?

Ok quick catch up. I have a job @ Target (get it? lol) I turned 21 (DON'T ASK!) and I was one of fifty to get accepted into the Vet Tech program at Hickey College, that i don't want to go to right now.  Oh, also i think i found my soul mate?
I LOVE my job at Target, I have friends, the work is challenging and fun and I get paid to organize things! Only downside is that I have to get up at 5:18 five days a week (ugh I know!) but on the flip side, I'm done with an 8 hour shift by 2.
So on to the reason i decided to blog tonight. Mel is going to college SATURDAY! So this week has been like a cram session trying to spend as much time with her as possible. Last night we went to see Crazy Stupid Love. Which I liked. I laughed, I cried, it moved me Bob (inside quote, I think from Veggie Tales lol) and then we decided to get dinner. Although in my defense I wanted to get dinner before the movie, but Mel said after. So then she asks "Where do you want to go?" And let's be honest, O'fallon, Wentzville, St. Charles area really, isn't full of night life. So i suggest Bob Evans. Hey it's food and they wouldn't close five minutes after we got there. So we get there around 9:30 and we are literally the ONLY customers.  The restaurant is DEAD! The waitress' and cooks are playing cards/ talking/ texting/ facebook-ing. So they didn't seem too thrilled to see us.  Our waitress was a blonde and one of those who I'm sure when she is off the clock uses an excess amount of the words 'like' 'no way' and 'and then i was like...' You get my drift? So she brought us our drinks and we are sitting there completely unsure of how to behave. So she takes our order and we are trying so hard to be easy for her so she won't kill us and/or spit in our food. I ordered a burger, with a salad and fries. Melissa ordered chicken tenders, with a salad and hash browns. Simple right? Yeah, she literally messed up all three of my foods! When she dropped off our food she took my salad bowl and asked if I wanted my fork. In my mind  I was thinking 'no lady normally you eat a burger and fries with you fingers!' so I said no thanks. She looked down at my plate where she had mistakenly put Mel's hash browns ( called home fries there but whatever!) and said "Don't you want them for your home fries?" Ok first of all, number one rule in service, never question the guest or claim they are wrong (unless absolutely necessary). But if she wanted to be idiot, who was I to stop her? So I looked at her and said "Those are her's" . She DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE for mixing the food up. And because Mel is a bleeding heart and I wasn't in the mood to complain, the waitress ended up with a seven dollar tip,( I am SO kicking myself for that right now lol)
As far as the soul mate goes.... I almost don't want to say anything so I don't risk the chance of  ruining it. But I will inform you.... Its complicated LOL
Hope your life is going the way you wanted it.... or at least not sucking!
CIAO!

Kansas City ROAD TRIP!

Ok, so last Friday morning, my sister, our friend, and I set out towards Kansas City. On the way we talked (A LOT) and listened to music ranging from Sick Puppies, to Country, to a mix of Veggietales and Disney. When we got to KC we immediately went to kidnap my best friend Tommy. It took longer than expected because we ran into his family but then we escaped lol. We went to lunch then decided to head to our hotel to drop off our stuff.  About 40 minutes later we left said hotel because yours truly was a MORON. See I booked the hotel room months in advanced and I put my credit card down and thought it would be taken out immediately. Well turns out they didn't try taking it out til last week and let's just say my account was lacking. So thankfully my mom came through and found us another hotel. We spent the rest of the day goofing off with Tommy. We ate at this restaurant called In-A-Tub. Not a big fan but different strokes for different fokes and all that jazz. Then we went and saw The X-Men First Class. AWESOME MOVIE!!! Saturday involved a scary adventure for breakfast followed  by an art museum and more shopping (poor Tommy lol). Sunday was church and Tommy's church was adorable but odd which one should almost expect if one knows Tommy. Then we went and got a cupcake at this awesome place called Cupcake A La Mode (YUMMMMM!!!). Then we set/stood in line for 4 HOURS for a concert. The concert was pretty cool even though we got soaked with other people's sweat! Monday we went to a park that Tommy took us to and it was beautiful. Then we drove home. I am so happy to be home but I miss Tommy already and life is kind of dull when you just finished an interesting journey you know? Anyways, just catching you up on the that. In 13 days guess what happens? I TURN 21!!! yeah it sounds fun but I have a feeling its going to pass with little to no excitement. Oh, well. As the French say Such is Life.

This is YOUR life

So, you ever get to the point in your life where you just want to press pause? You know, that moment when all of a sudden you start thinking to yourself, Wait! How did that happen?  I can't believe I said THAT! What do I do now? If you are anything like me then this tends to happen oh I don't know... every few weeks! Sometimes though it is other things besides contemplation that puts me in this mood. Tonight it happened when my sister Mel made me watch a presentation of hers for school and listen to the song that she had picked out to go along with it. The Title of the song is This is Your Life by Switchfoot. And it got my thinking. I'm going to show you the lyrics so you can see what i mean...

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

Don’t close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

And you had everything to lose 

Do you see what I mean? I mean WOW! Isn't that like a punch in the gut? Am I who i want to be? No. Is this the life I dreamed of? NO! I want to have a job that challenges me, a car that is mine and actually works, and a man that thinks I'm his soul mate. The aftermath of this song can be a bit bitter but its also a kick in the pants to push us to accomplish our dreams. I'm working on the job and the car ( Wish me luck!) now all i need is a man.... LOL ( wish me A LOT of luck! )

Ciao!